His Love

It's been a while since my last post. Life has been keeping me busy, a little too busy. I've been trying to slow down. I'm starting to dislike having something to go do almost everyday. Whereas, at the beginning of the school year, I was trying to make it so that we had stuff to do. Obviously, I succeeded. Finding time for myself has become more difficult. I used to wake up at 6am every weekday morning. I would have my quiet time with God and prepare for the day. It was great! But, somehow between then and now, I have lost that quiet time. It saddens me. I need to find that balance I once had.

So many things have changed since we moved. I say so many things but yet its all still quite the same. I'm starting to feel more like 'me' again. And, honestly, I think it has a lot to do with my decision to stop head covering. Yes, you heard me right. The topic I started this blog with - head covering - I no longer do. I don't know if I can give a real reason. At first it was something  felt led to do. Like God wanted to show me something. And, I did feel different. I felt like He was right there with me as I went throughout my day. Over time though, that feeling diminished. I started to feel far from Him. My days started to swirl about and all I felt was confusion. Something was missing in my life. It was that close personal relationship I had with Him before the head covering began. Now, I am just speaking from personal experience here. I know people who choose to head cover, and I think that's great. As I said at the beginning, it's a personal choice. I never felt as if it was something that God told us we HAD to do.

I only recently stopped covering my head. If you could really say that, it was more like a wide headband. The change in me is amazing. I feel.... free again. It seems weird to type that out. But, it's true. That's the best way I can describe how I feel. Free.

I am so thankful to the Lord God Almighty, who made the heavens and the earth, who has given us freedom in Christ. He has saved us from our sins. That is amazing! He did it out of love for us. US! You and me friends! He loved us even though we were/are filthy sinners. That IS love! It baffles me every time I think about it. It always will. I want to have that kind of love for people. Lord, please fill me with Your love. Let it flow from me for all to see and feel and know.